I also agree with Magwitch. I too went into the pioneer work, Bethel. I wish so much that I had not wasted so much of my life. It's like I am addicted to try to understand why.
I would love to be an ex, ex JW, but the child abouse issue just eats at me as I saw first hand how molesters are allowed free run in the KH's. But if I had not saw it I would probably still be a blind follower.
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